Unbroken

After A Long While...

2008-03-02T23:05:00.002+08:00

Harloz, been about 2 weeks since I last posted, lol.

Had been playing Crysis + Kane & Lynch about half a week back, great games. Doubt I'll be playing any new games for quite a while though, since I should start to study...

Managed to get all the albums except 1 for Stormwitch. Pretty good metal band, although it's mainly about more abstract stuff. Also there's this album that's very little metal, Shogun. If you want you can always listen to some of their songs. And yah, can anyone tell me how do I place music on my blog? Tried a few but they never work out. Sian.

March holidays are coming soon, and with it the March tests as well. Irritating TJC, don't have March Common Test also replace with other tests, might as well just have a March Common Test and begone with all this lame crap. Sighz. And thinking about it, I haven't touched my lecture notes in quite a while... Maybe if I studied I could actually pass for once.

Oh and yeah, my GP teacher is changing. Mr Tong said he's leaving our class, so once again we have a change of GP teachers. Wonder if it might be Mr Veera again. Who knows? Like they say... the only constant in life is change. At least hope it won't be like my Chinese teachers in VS, changed like 4-6 times in those 4 years. Hectic stuff.

That's all for now I guess... Adieu!

Revelations?

2008-02-13T23:44:00.002+08:00

Harloz, been quite some time since I last posted... okay lar, not really that long, haha.

Few days ago, my GP teacher, surprisingly, gave me some food for thought. We were talking about what would you ask for if a genie were to grant you a wish. Well, knowing me, I asked for having the "Time to play all the games in the world", hahaha. Well, that fell into the "Immortality" category. Later someone asked for "Wisdom", and it was the answer Mr. Tong was awaiting as well. Goes to show how much he values wisdom. But exactly how valuable is wisdom to you? Or, what would you actually ask for?

Wealth

Power
Fame
Beauty
Intelligence
Knowledge
Wisdom
Love
Immortality
Youth
Friendship
Family
Everlasting
Happiness
Stability
Infinity
Satisfaction
Understanding

What would you seek? I asked myself that question, over and over. It's been pretty interesting, understanding myself better, delving into the hidden recesses of my pith, and finding what is it I truly would want. Wealth, I'll say 90%-95% of the human population would desire that, although it doesn't truly matter to me (eh, but don't try to start asking me for free drinks hor). I also remember telling my friend, "Doesn't really matter where I go after I die lar, just die and then disappear lor... Leave and let be. Just do my part and leave lor." Something liddat la. Maybe it falls under "Satisfaction"? Probably. After all, "True happiness is satisfaction", it's something taught in Buddhism, and it's really true la (to me at least).

Okay okay, enough of such stuff. I know tomorrow is... I mean, today is Valentine's Day, so, enjoy your Valentine's Day and your chocolates! Haha. Also kena sabo-ed by my friend, sian sia. Somehow, his friend's friends are in TJC, and his friend knows that I happen to be in TJC as well (what an unfortunate coincidence), so she decided to ask my friend to ask me to pass some things to her friends in TJC. Best thing was, I don't even know who they are! Okay la, maybe remember one of them from my Orientation group, but the other one is completely don't know. Sian. Somemore tomorrow the classes are not aligned as usual, since it has to be Valentine's Day a.k.a. Friendship Day for JCs. Tough luck. Oh well.

Anyway, enjoy your Valentine's Day, and here's a song about love. Hope you enjoy! EmoCean by Lunatica, album The Edge Of Infinity. Melodic/Symphonic metal by the way.

Chinese New Year!

2008-02-09T04:10:00.000+08:00

Harloz!

Happy Chinese New Year! Xin Nian Kuai Le! Wan Shi Ru Yi!

Yay! It's CNY! Fun times, probably gonna gain mass, sian. Need to go on mass loss programme after CNY, hopefully can lose mass until 70kg from my current 86kg. Okay la... 16kg to lose... since I managed to lose 22kg in 4-5 months last time until 84kg I should be able to lose 16kg easily enough.

Enjoying myself, especially during mealtimes (Had steamboat on the first night, and the Fa Cai is nice!) and playing WC3:FT! Yep, I got it back from my friend PY. Now can enjoy DotA and TDs at home. Sad thing is internet connection jialat, always lag like nobody's business. At least can play la.

Later going out to bai nian, 2 places somemore, then gonna GPL! (Go Play Lan) Meanwhile when visiting my teacher's house can sun bian play Puzzle Fighter and challenge my friends again... last year I beat the other guy 5x in a row, heheh, then kena ban from Puzzle Fighter because we were playing winner stay (although he kept hogging the place because he wanted revenge and get his 1st place back)... hahaha. This year my friend say see who can join us in the "Banlist". Fun st00fz.

Whew, must sleep now, got a long day ahead man. Abo later you see me fishing on the MRT fish until miss the stop, then reach the place late. Now that's troublesome.

Night! Enjoy your New Year! Hou Hui You Qi!

Influenza...

2008-02-02T16:38:00.000+08:00

Harlo... damn sian, 'cause I kena flu since Wednesday afternoon. Not that jialat lar, but don't feel like doing much at all, just sleep and recuperate...

Got MCed from Thursday to Friday, so basically the rest of my week I was staying at home stoning... sian.

That concludes my post. Lol.

Sian

2008-01-27T14:24:00.000+08:00

Hi there.

It has been a damn sian weekend for me.

First off: Downloaded Prey and Call Of Duty 4, and both doesn't work. Damnit!
Second off: As a result, I have totally nothing much to do during the weekend.
Third off: I figured three things looked better than just two things.

So I basically stoned my weekend away. So, I'll just talk about the other few days before the weekend.

Friday, I was going out to meet my friends, but I overslept my siesta, so I was a bit late, since it was already 7pm and I was supposed to meet them at 7:30pm, so I was chionging already, 'cause better late a bit than late like funfair. Then I was going to cross this junction, and it had a lot of cars, and coincidently I was messaging my friend telling him I was probably going to be quite late, and I was waiting at the side with another woman with her child. One car just passed me, then I saw the woman walk forward in my peripheral vision, so I thought the road was clear already, then actually the woman was just bloody walking forward to get closer to the road, and I stepped one foot on the road and a car brushed past me (I was 1-2cm away from the car). Damnit man, how suey can you get?

Soon enough I was on the train to Bugis, and I was thinking about the car incident. To be more accurate, I was thinking of "Hmm... what was the driver scolding me?" rather than "Shit man! I could've died!". Maybe it's time I went for a psychological check-up. The train was bloody packed and full as well, had to squeeze and maneuver through the crowd just to exit the train. I wonder how many tins of sardine were made that day. Nevertheless, met with my friends BLim and ChangYang, as well as their friend ChiChi (More of CY's friend I think). Then we went off to makan.

We ate at Terra, and I had chicken steak, while CY had some salmon fillet and BLim and ChiChi had Fish 'n' Chips. Since we ordered the set meals we had a soup of clam chowder before the main course and a scoop of vanilla ice cream as dessert. Yummy. Meanwhile we shared lame jokes and stuff while we ate, although I thought the air-conditioner was already cold enough. After that we walked around Bugis and talk cock sing song, then we went back to the MRT station and went home. Fun stuffs.

Oh, and yeah, a little video for the masses (or, realistically speaking, trickle) who actually visit my website, here's a little something for entertainment:

I Love This Song...

2008-01-24T00:15:00.000+08:00

Hey there. I said I might update only on the weekend, but I decided to just put this song.

It's a song by Dragonland, a power metal band. No worries, it isn't drum-spam and guitar-meshing. It's a very nice and sad song.

Forever Walking Alone

And these are the lyrics for the song:

Alone I travel though the wasteland in my heart
As the grievance tears me apart
Thinking of you and the things you meant to me
My heart is bleeding, I can't go on

If I could unwind the wheel of time
I would have been by your side

If I could turn back time
My precious love would be alive

The empty void inside my heart grows day by day
I have nowhere to turn to ease the pain
Remembering the smile you used to give me
And your laughter that could light
My way home

If I could unwind the wheel of time
I would have been by your side

If I could turn back time
I never had a chance to say goodbye

I have cried and mourned my loss
My heart keeps beating only for you
Am I strong enough to fight on?
Without your love I stand, I stand empty and alone

[Acoustic solo]
[Solo]

So my love watch over me now
My rage catches fire, I will strike them down
I will avenge you, oh, vengeance so sweet
That's my last gift for you
I'm forever walking alone
__________

Beautiful song, from Dragonland. Great band indeed. Anyway, I must sleep now. Night! Zzz

Whew

2008-01-15T16:55:00.001+08:00

Harlo!

Well, first things first, I made a mistake on my previous post; it's the iPod Nano, not "mini" lol. Sounds nearly the same, had me all mixed up >.<

Anyway, been busy trying to finish up my poem (Of course, eh-hem, my schoolwork as well, definitely). Anyway, posted an entirely new poem yesterday, "Winter Solace", as well as revamped the old story "Flowers" to have more descriptive language. As for my other poem, still work in progress, and I do notice I've been updating my blog extremely frequently as of late.

Well, too much stuff to say, not enough time to tell... Okay that's lame. Well, focusing alot on my writings these days since I've been trying to get that poem finished and my brain is attuned to literature recently. Perchance I'll get another story up. Perhaps. Still, today was pretty much a lamed day, with only a few lessons since I'm Economics H1. Had 2 or 3 breaks in a row, although the 2nd break was taken by Chemistry remedial (I screwed my Chemistry test =C), but still, going home around 1:20pm was good. Had lunch with a few of my classmates, Bryan, Daryl, Jimmy and Shi Sheng at the food court opposite TJC, and then Bryan went back to school for some stuff (Choir I think) while the rest of us went to Bedok interchange, and we went home.

I still have to go out again later though, wushu training later. Hopefully another fruitful session. Now? Working on the poem XD

Bye~!

Weird Day

2008-01-14T20:35:00.000+08:00

Good day! It's been a weird day today, and I can't really tell why. Still, great things happening today, feeling good now. Weird.

My sis got her iPod mini red yesterday, and so she sold her old iPod mini to me for S$20... a fabulous bargain indeed. I had it loaded up with songs immediately, and enjoyed it alot. Made the 1 hour trip home pretty exciting, unlike the usual walks home.

Sadly, my timetable got screwed up. Last week's Monday ended at 12:30pm. This week's timetable for Monday ends at 3:00pm. Damn, now I can't go back to VS on Mondays and say hi to all my juniors while they slug along to their classes. Also, it ended on a Chemistry practical lesson, and it was pretty interesting as my teacher asked for my holiday homework:

"Lye Huat, holiday homework."
"... ... ... ... ..." gives an innocent grin =D
"... see me after chem prac." walks away.
"...shit."

So I looked for him after chemistry practical, along with 2 other classmates who didn't do their homework as well (heheh, we won't be getting any Model Student Awards anytime soon), and we went with him to the study tables outside the auditorium at the 3rd level. Then he handed us each a MCQ worksheet and told us to finish the 15 questions, and then show it to him. So I sat down, rushed through the work (I took about 10 minutes after I got hyped up and chionged the worksheet XD) while my classmates were still around the 5th-8th question. Well, can't blame them, since Mole Concept (the topic for the MCQ) is my forte, or to be more accurate, my only good topic in chemistry. Well, lucky me got 12/15 for the MCQ and, after finishing up the corrections and Chemistry Practical Expt 3, was let off. Thing was, halfway through, the rained like it never rained before for 3 months. Sweet weather.

Well, managed to make it to VS just fine though, just a teeny weeny bit wet. A bit. Got to love the entirely invisible and completely permeable overhead shelter called air.

Still, pretty fun day. Nothing beats walking home after going the wrong direction for 2 stops and realising after that, and having to carry my schoolbag, my shoe/clothes bag, and my 2x2.5kg ankle weights for a total of around 6 stops. Anyway, I'm still working on that poem, and at least I've completed another stanza (for the uninitiated, you can call it the equivalent of a paragraph in an essay). Well, hope to finish it soon. And that's all for today. See ya!

Stoning...

2008-01-13T14:30:00.000+08:00

It's been a very stone weekend for me... As to those of you who wondered why I didn't come on Friday, I was trying to finish my Chemistry, forgot to set my alarm clock, and fell asleep at 3am. Promptly later I woke up at 11 am. Darn it. At least I have my chemistry completed...

Wow, it's damn stone even trying to write (or type for that matter) this blog. Feeling so bored I can't really get myself to do anything, even play any games. I guess it has something to do with my computer unable to take Splinter Cell: Double Agent. Every time I try to load the fourth mission, my computer crashes, as my driver is incompatible. Sadness... it was a good game. Now I usually sleep half the day away, dreaming of nothing either. Oh, talking about dreams, I had an extremely gory dream last night. Very graphically detailed and gory dream that I still remember vividly, and it disgusts me even now. Ugh.

Been trying to work on a poem these few days, had a bit of inspiration, but it kind of emptied itself out pretty fast, although I do want to finish it up. Otherwise it'll just stay on my desktop forever, half-completed and dejected completely.

Looking forward to Chinese New Year... Ang Baos and good food, with a holiday as a bonus. Too bad it's only 3 days of the entire 15 days.

Oh well, I guess I've really nothing left to say. My mind's a blank right now. Maybe if I finish the poem I'll just post it here... Till then, au revoir!

Actual School Starts...

2008-01-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

Hmm... it's been an interesting week so far. Pretty good too, since I didn't go to school for two days already, heheh. What happened? Well... it's a long story, but not that long that I can't place it in one post.

Monday. Feeling sian because my GP homework is 100% untouched and my GP tutor is, as I've said before, the DM F. Tong, and it happened that I've been eating pretty much fried stuff the night before, thus I had a bit of a sore throat. And, somehow, it appeared that knowing that I might get screwed in school by F. Tong seemed to aggravate the sore throat. Research studies have shown that psychological factors may influence illnesses, and...

But I digress, heheh. So I didn't go, and later in the day my friend SMSed me to tell me F. Tong requested for an MC/Parent's letter. So I went to get a MC that night, and the good doctor gave me a MC for two days. Now that's what you call worth it! Well, especially since I've only wanted for a single day off, but since he also had a lesson on tuesday, let's just say it was a bonus.

Still, hearing my classmates' comments about F. Tong, apparently he isn't that bad a teacher, in fact he's pretty okay, although I must admit first impressions make a pretty big deal on student-teacher relationships. Well, he was the one who introduced me to the Vice-Principals anyway. For reprimanding, of course. The VPs can never find time for anything else of less importance. Hmm, I'm one bloody sarcarstic sod, like how the old man from the swamps in The Witcher described Geralt of Rivia.

And yes, before I forget, some interesting translations from my friend. You know, pumpkin in Thai is pronounced as fuck-tong (not exact spelling). How apt, since the initials and the shape are similar. Non-TJCians wouldn't really understand, so you might want to ask a TJCian who's the DM and take a look. Everything becomes crystal clear after that. Anyway, it's bloody early now. 12 am. Time to get some sleep.

Phew! Hectic Days Ahead!

2008-01-05T01:16:00.001+08:00

Good day to ye. And a hectic day to me. Phew.

Had wanted to update the blog on Thursday night, but felt too worn out moving all those stuff that I just hit the bed and slept. Lol. Went to eat at Bhuti Vegetarian Restaurant that night too, with all my family. Scrumptous. Need I say more? Heheh.

Friday. Went to school as usual (Unlike the previous day). A superb waste of time. School assembly 7:25am - 7:50am. Maths lecture (of which I also forgot to buy the notes for my class... >.<) 7:50am - 8:40am. Physics lecture 8:40am to 9:30am. 9:30am to 12:30pm? One bloody big chunk of time which we wasted on playing Monopoly. Irritating crap, bloody school administration, which only knows how to waste our time. And we can't even leave before 12:30pm. A total waste of time!

Went home, took a shower, and went out after that, and went to Suntec to meet up with my friends + crash TJC's mass dance at the Fountain at Suntec. Coincidentally met my emo-friend JJ, (LOL) who wasn't so emo after all, and spent the rest of the day with him and his bunch of VS juniors. Fun stuff. Also danced a bit here and there with WeiQuan (couple dance O.o") and then did some VS cheers just before we left to make a statement, kekeke.

Also, just remembered I still haven't touched my unholy pile of holiday assignments, which, unfortunately, has to be handed in next week. And, even more unfortunate, my new GP teacher is Mr. Tong, who incidently happens to the the school's Discipline Master. How suey. Guess it's because of the number of discipline cases in my class (3-4, me inclusive, keke). Fascinating... now I'm amusing myself with flashes of how terribly I die next week. Heehee.

Oh well... these things always settle themselves out, somehow... either through memory (or the lack thereof) or through self-persuasion and external encouragement to do the homework. It will be a pretty sight in 3 sunrises. Till then, a farewell from the land of the rising sun... Sayonara!

Turning Point

2008-01-02T19:37:00.000+08:00

Bonsoir, good evening.

It's been an eventful and enlightening year previously. 2007 had taught me things I've never learnt before, nor shall I forget, for it taught me the hard way: regret, sorrow, anxiety. Things like:

Don't follow the bloody crowd, you'll only end up regretting it for life. My sis told me that before, but I didn't heed her words well. Now I regret it.

Joining the TJC Wushu team too hurriedly without even finding out exactly what it was in wushu that I was looking for, and TJC Wushu couldn't provide what I was seeking in wushu. I left the wushu team, but sorrow lingers.

Not planning well for the future, and now I stand on a solitary iceberg melting in the middle of the Atlantic. Anxiety flourishes as I fret not getting a boat to Greenland.

Oh well. It's just the University of Life, and I'm probably just into year one out of sixty, and it's a bloody school of hard knocks. Repeat for emphasis: HARD knocks. The lessons drive down hard and painful, but at least you're once bitten, twice shy. Hmm, I think I'm starting to sound weird here. Screw it. I'm probably eccentric anyway.

Nevertheless, I learnt pretty much the previous year, maybe not as much as I had learnt in my four years in VS, but definitely the lessons that are hardest to take. VS taught me values. TJC? Taught me that the world loves to be an asshole. Also learnt that choices are made by oneself, not chosen for you by others, otherwise you'll end up screwing yourself bad and end up on an iceberg in the middle of a magma ocean, and no boat will save you from your misery either. Well, I guess this boils down to something: make sure you know what you're getting into before you dive in. It's pretty self-explanatory, but I ignored it, and I'm left in this sorry state. Oh well. And I seem to be ranting as well, heheh. I still have choices left open to me, and I have chosen what I will want, and now is the necessary action left, to grasp the chance while it presents itself, before it turns into a wisp of smoke.

Still, pretty glad that I've met a great bunch of people from TJC, like my classmates, schoolmates, etc. When I shall leave TJC, one day or another, I will forget TJC, forever. The only thing I shall remember from this instituition, are the people I have met there, those that I consider friends. This post is getting real long. I should be ending off soon.

Good night, sleep well. The sun shall shine again the next day, and I'll be skipping school tomorrow. XD

A Friend In Need...

2008-01-01T19:22:00.000+08:00

Good day. This post came pretty soon after the first post, but who cares anyway. No one reads the intros much anyway...

This post is dedicated to a good friend of mine, JJ. I don't really care if he reads this or not, maybe he might, maybe he won't. I just know that he isn't alone in this world, even if he feels like he is, and hopefully he'll know too, regardless of whether it was me, or someone else who told him. Anyway, just read on...

If I ever had a wish, I'll wish I could turn back time,

Then I could correct all my wrongs,

Right all my mistakes,

And sorrow would never find a home in my heart.

If I ever had a hope, I'll hope I can find the light in my life,

Then I would never be lost again,

Find my path in life,

And worry would never make its way into my home.

If I ever had a want, I'll want to get a new life,

Then I can get another chance to live,

Maybe a better life,

But deep down I know I'll never find a life that's good.

If I'll ever look forward to something, I'll look forward to death,

Then the worries that fret me shall be gone,

Break away the chains,

But the tears of my friends and my family I can't afford.

If I could only have one thing, I would choose my friends,

Then I could waste the gloomy times away,

Let the nights pass,

And the light of the sun shall shine the next morn.

Never forget that you have friends, friends that are always there to help you when you need it. Just ask them and they shall answer, for what are friends for, anyway. A friend in need is a friend indeed, after all...

Dang, that was emo. Nevertheless, good luck, and hopefully you can find the light down the tunnel that you've been seeking, the lease from darkness. Me? All I've found are torches down the tunnel, a falsified hope. Maybe you'll have a better shot at life then me. Adieu.

First Post Of The Day

2008-01-01T17:50:00.000+08:00

Good day. This blog was created exclusively for those who cannot withstand my other blog (which, unfortunately, encompasses every single soul who had come across it; no, I'm not going to put 'poor' in front of 'soul'), so that you may read up about what I have to say without having to check your sanity every two minutes.

Nevertheless, since this is my first post, I shall start off by describing myself. I'm just a simple person, living a simple life, in developed and sunny Singapore. Just a teenager who doesn't have much of an ambition in life, but more devoted to enjoying the present (which ends up becoming a pretty problem in life).

It's a good day today, other than the fact that I'm starting school tomorrow. Dang! Now that's terrible... I haven't yet finished all my games! (I'm a game fanatic, everyone who knows me knows that =P) I'm a fan of metal music too! Sadly it has a bad repute that precedes it, and few people touch it because of its terrible namesake. There are some truly nice songs in metal, and some of the cross-genres from metal are fabulous too! Take melodic metal for instance, with bands like Leaves' Eyes and Within Temptation. Do check some of their songs sometime!

Well, I guess I'll leave it at here for today. Remember to check out my next post soon! Adious.